25th may, yesterday, was phoebe's 2nd birthday. these few days, i kept on thinking abt what had happened to yuxuan. i realised that a lot of things will not happened as planned. i always plan ahead of time. i love making plans. i was supposed to be happy for phoebe's birthday. but i felt very sad as well.
initially, i planned that after celebrating phoebe's birthday in may, i would be looking forward to the arrival of yuxuan in early july. but unfortunately, my plans didnt worked out.
i cried quite often actually these days. sometimes even when im driving, while wating for the traffic lights to turn green, i will stare in space and start thinking of what had happened.
i always wonder why cant the doc give me medicine to cure the infection? why do they have to cut the stitch? isnt there something else that can be done to save yuxuan? yuxuan is so innocent. there is nothing wrong with the baby. so healthy, yet had to be taken away. why?

my love

little marilyn monroe!


so cute!


do we look alike?


in the car

phoebe is really getting cuter and cuter. she's almost two and talks a lot now. actually, she is quite a good gal. when we ask her not to do some things, she will understand and not do it if we explain to her clearly.

phoebe loves the camera and always wants mama to take photos of her....

New job

phoebe mama has changed job! now, blogging from office..oops! a bit free coz its only the first week of work. jobscope: to get sponsors to invest in concerts. so anyone who knows of any potential clients, pls pls contact phoebe mama. she hopes that she can work here for awhile. hope that the boss wont ask her to leave if she didnt meet the expectations.