phoebe had a case of the terrifying HFMD on the 19 nov. it was really a horrible illness. the sunday before was jody's birthday and she had a party at boon lay. brenda had high fever but after a rest, she continued playing with the kids. everything was ok, when on tues, bro called to say that brenda had contracted hfmd. and wed, phoebe had high fever. and ulcer. and spots. urghh....she was grouchy, and refused to eat medication. we really had to force her down her throat. which usually, she's ok with medicine.
mummy had high fever on sat too and daddy had too.
anyway, now tat it has passed, i really hope that is the first and last case.
it was really horrifying!!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
rainy days at T3
she is quite a poser...
i am amused by how phoebe stands...so funny!
we were supposed to go out to the beach, but the rain came pouring long and heavy the night before. and again, we went to T3. seems that T3 is the best place to go on a rainy day. it is big, toilets clean, and there's a little play area for phoebe to play for some time.
Monday, November 03, 2008
T3 Day
We were supposed to go to the Marina Barrage yesterday, but after daddy go TPY, after lunch, after Phoebe watching HI 5, it started pouring while we were almost going up the ECP. So in the end, we went the other direction and ended up at T3.
Phoebe loves the big running space! Actually there are quite a number of things for children to do at the airport. There's a little play area at the basement, which I like because, it doesnt have slides. So its more hygenic I feel. There is also a wood block colouring area. Although the sign say we should recycle paper and be environmental friendly, a huge stack of A3 size paper was left unattended for children to take and colour freely. So, is that really helping the environment? I dont think so.
Overall, Phoebe really enjoyed herself. She had 2 bars of chocolates and I bought her a big Wally book!
Sunday, November 02, 2008
10th year anniversary!
29 Oct 2008, wed, marks the 10th anniversary of being together for baby and me. 10 years ago, we met at the orchard mrt. how shd i say? we met for a movie, by george clooney. cant remember the title now. and the rest of my life has never been better.
i call this fate. and for me, its also luck. because i am really lucky to have such a good husband. i was very surprised that he had bought a present for me, even before i reminded him. it was a very nice Panerai watch. and i think it is quite expensive. and within 2 days, i had actually scratched it. what a heartpain!
actually, i think what's most impt for me is the little card that he writes. i always like it when baby writes something for me. he warms my heart and touches me deep down. i think he hs a flare with words :)
i did not write him a card though. because i know i will cry. this year has been a very difficult year for us. it was vey unexpected and i know we will have to accept the harsh reality as part of our lives. during that period, baby had been very supportive, and i know there are husbands who don't. so i know i cannot take it for granted.
baby, i love you, and thank you for being with me the last decade, and the next few decades to come.
i call this fate. and for me, its also luck. because i am really lucky to have such a good husband. i was very surprised that he had bought a present for me, even before i reminded him. it was a very nice Panerai watch. and i think it is quite expensive. and within 2 days, i had actually scratched it. what a heartpain!
actually, i think what's most impt for me is the little card that he writes. i always like it when baby writes something for me. he warms my heart and touches me deep down. i think he hs a flare with words :)
i did not write him a card though. because i know i will cry. this year has been a very difficult year for us. it was vey unexpected and i know we will have to accept the harsh reality as part of our lives. during that period, baby had been very supportive, and i know there are husbands who don't. so i know i cannot take it for granted.
baby, i love you, and thank you for being with me the last decade, and the next few decades to come.
Monday, September 22, 2008
when grandma goes on a holiday...
for the past one week, grandma went for a holiday in south africa.
so there's only phoebe and mama and sometimes papa together for the week.
brought phoebe to the latest swimming pool at sengkang. it was huge for a public pool, and there were many slides. papa tried a few times and really enjoyed himself. mama tried the shortest slide and think, that's it, too scary for her.
phoebe was a little bit scared at first, but after a while, totally enjoyed herself!
Monday, August 04, 2008
moist chocolate cake
After watching Belinda Lee's prog on Ch U, I decided to finally learn to cook something. The prog, "Xi You Ji 2" was abt Singaporen going to diff countries.
The pp missed the food that their parents cooked. So I wonder, if Phoebe is overseas, what will she miss? So I decided to pick up baking.
This is my first attempt. Moist chocolate cake. I consider it a success, although the cake was finally baked at 2.30am!!
Look out for more cakes coming!!
Friday, July 18, 2008
sentences
little phoebe is gettin really smart and talkative. tat day when i called home, she said, "妈妈买糖给phoebe吃!" i was surprise that she can speak a full sentence without any help. and she's just slightly more than 2 years old. i like talking to phoebe because she is getting more mature. she's like a little friend and she understands what you are talking about. she is good with colours too. she can name the colours and her fave is green. she can also say the full zoo-phonics out.
and everytime before she sleeps, she will talk to her little frens, Hippo and Mickey Mouse :)
phoebe is super cute. she wants to go to the zoo to see giraffe. but mummy is quite tied up and hopefully i can bring her to the zoo tmr!
and everytime before she sleeps, she will talk to her little frens, Hippo and Mickey Mouse :)
phoebe is super cute. she wants to go to the zoo to see giraffe. but mummy is quite tied up and hopefully i can bring her to the zoo tmr!
Monday, June 02, 2008
pasir ris park
mummy and daddy brought phoebe to pasir ris park on the vesak day PH on Monday. mummy wanted to bring phoebe to see the horses and ponies at Gallop Stable, since phoebe likes horses so much. however, to our disappointment, the stable was closed as it is a PH. but luckily, we can still see the horses. phoebe was afraid to be near the horse. and when mummy wanted to take a picture with the horse, the horse made a grunt and frightened poor phoebe. little phoebe was so scared that she run away and wanted to go home! that was quite a funny experience!
of course, having driven all the way there, we did not just go home after seeing a closed stable. we went to the huge playground and phoebe had some great fun there!
phoebe's 2nd birthday!
phoebe's birthday cupcakes, celebration at her class
her classmate, caiqian gave her a pressie
phoebe ready to go out for her celebration with family on 24th may
barney cake from pine garden
singing birthday song with brenda
Monday, May 26, 2008
25th may, yesterday, was phoebe's 2nd birthday. these few days, i kept on thinking abt what had happened to yuxuan. i realised that a lot of things will not happened as planned. i always plan ahead of time. i love making plans. i was supposed to be happy for phoebe's birthday. but i felt very sad as well.
initially, i planned that after celebrating phoebe's birthday in may, i would be looking forward to the arrival of yuxuan in early july. but unfortunately, my plans didnt worked out.
i cried quite often actually these days. sometimes even when im driving, while wating for the traffic lights to turn green, i will stare in space and start thinking of what had happened.
i always wonder why cant the doc give me medicine to cure the infection? why do they have to cut the stitch? isnt there something else that can be done to save yuxuan? yuxuan is so innocent. there is nothing wrong with the baby. so healthy, yet had to be taken away. why?
initially, i planned that after celebrating phoebe's birthday in may, i would be looking forward to the arrival of yuxuan in early july. but unfortunately, my plans didnt worked out.
i cried quite often actually these days. sometimes even when im driving, while wating for the traffic lights to turn green, i will stare in space and start thinking of what had happened.
i always wonder why cant the doc give me medicine to cure the infection? why do they have to cut the stitch? isnt there something else that can be done to save yuxuan? yuxuan is so innocent. there is nothing wrong with the baby. so healthy, yet had to be taken away. why?
Friday, May 09, 2008
my love
little marilyn monroe!
so cute!
do we look alike?
in the car
phoebe is really getting cuter and cuter. she's almost two and talks a lot now. actually, she is quite a good gal. when we ask her not to do some things, she will understand and not do it if we explain to her clearly.
phoebe loves the camera and always wants mama to take photos of her....
New job
phoebe mama has changed job! now, blogging from office..oops! a bit free coz its only the first week of work. jobscope: to get sponsors to invest in concerts. so anyone who knows of any potential clients, pls pls contact phoebe mama. she hopes that she can work here for awhile. hope that the boss wont ask her to leave if she didnt meet the expectations.
Monday, March 31, 2008
amazing
phoebe has started to talk quite a fair bit...sometimes, you will be surprise at what she can come up with. yesterday when were gg home from ah ma's house at boon lay, she use her fingers to make a triangle, and she said 'angle'. which i know she meant 'triangle'.
i was so shocked beacuse neither me nor daddy has taught her tat. we only teach her the shape in the books and sorter. but not using her fingers. i'm not sure where she learnt it from. and phoebe also roll her 2 hands, and said 'circle'.
phoebe can also sing the the full abc song without help. although it wasnt clear, but i know she can say the alphabets in sequence.
phoebe has been gg to the playgroup twice a week at Growing Up Gifted. after ard 6 lessons, she can do all the signs that were taught in zoophonics in class.
phoebe will also say 'tupid'. which is bad of coz! when she fell down or knock over the table, she will say 'tupid'. she must have learnt it while playing with her cousins.
phoebe is now absorbing like a sponge and we must be careful with what we say. really dunno is the milk powder or what, but kids nowadays are simply amazing!
i was so shocked beacuse neither me nor daddy has taught her tat. we only teach her the shape in the books and sorter. but not using her fingers. i'm not sure where she learnt it from. and phoebe also roll her 2 hands, and said 'circle'.
phoebe can also sing the the full abc song without help. although it wasnt clear, but i know she can say the alphabets in sequence.
phoebe has been gg to the playgroup twice a week at Growing Up Gifted. after ard 6 lessons, she can do all the signs that were taught in zoophonics in class.
phoebe will also say 'tupid'. which is bad of coz! when she fell down or knock over the table, she will say 'tupid'. she must have learnt it while playing with her cousins.
phoebe is now absorbing like a sponge and we must be careful with what we say. really dunno is the milk powder or what, but kids nowadays are simply amazing!
Saturday, March 15, 2008
melbourne!
mama and papa went to melbourne for a holiday, it was fun. papa wanted to visit the casino every single night. so horrible...papa loves to gamble. but one good thing abt the casino is there's this restaurant called the greco's and they have many varieties of cheesecake. we tried the
mama and papa visited the yarra valley wineries. love the trip!! expecially the tour at the chadon winery. at the wineries, the owners will usually plant red and white roses. red for the red grapes and white for white grapes. if the roses wither, its an indication that there are pests and will affect the grapes. at the chadon winery, we learnt how sparkling wine is made. it is really a very long process and we understand why and appreciate the high cost of the sparkling wine.
recommended (by miss goh) marsbar cheesecake!
mama and papa visited the yarra valley wineries. love the trip!! expecially the tour at the chadon winery. at the wineries, the owners will usually plant red and white roses. red for the red grapes and white for white grapes. if the roses wither, its an indication that there are pests and will affect the grapes. at the chadon winery, we learnt how sparkling wine is made. it is really a very long process and we understand why and appreciate the high cost of the sparkling wine.
mama loves the steam train ride. its call the puffing billy. we could actually sit on the ledge of the window and hang our legs out when the train moves. so cool!
we also went to the great ocean road. it was a long day but the scenery is worth it! great and spectacular view. just that the tour guide cum driver that day was so boring.
mama wanted to go to the strawberry farm at mornington penisula to pluck strawberries. but
guess that the tour has not enough people and it got cancelled! so sad..but they went to the phillip island to look at the smallest penguins. they are so cute and penguins are community based animals. they do everything in a group. when they come home from the sea, they will wait for each other at the beach and move back together in groups.
the stars at the phillip island were amazing! they were so many stars, bright and shining. when mama looks at the stars, she started crying. she remembered that someone told her that baby yuxuan will be one of the shining stars in the sky...
the rest of the days and nights were spent shopping eating and casinoing!
Monday, February 18, 2008
The past 2 weeks had been the most difficult time of both mama and papa's lives. On the 2nd Feb, mama was admitted to KKH after bleeding clots again. This is the 3rd or 4th time that it happened throughout the pregnancy. At the hospital, doctor diagnosed that the cervix was dilated to abt 4cm, and the waterbag is buldging out. This is very scary as mama is only 19 weeks pregnant and cervix is not supposed to open up at this stage.
Mama was hospitalised immediately and put under observation. On following Mon, dr jeannette and professor tan suggested that mama goes for a cerclage. this is a surgery that can help to stitch the cervis back so that the pregnancy can prolong to full term.
HOwever, there are some risks involved in the surgery. There might be infection and the waterbag might break. But mama still wants to go for the surgery as she and papa cannot give up on the baby. If the surgery was not done, baby may come out anytime. This is her only hope.
Luckily, the surgery was successful and the cervix was closed.
Mama has to spend the CNY in the hospital for a week as she has to be completely resting in bed. Not even to go toilet for any business. She practically eat, sleep and s*** in bed.
On the 11th Feb, Mon, mama was supposed to be discharged after a scan. However, the scan showed that the cervix was opened up again, to abt 1cm. This was not supposed to happen!
At that point, the baby was only reaching 20 weeks. The docs say that if baby is borned between 20-24 weeks, it is not possible for the baby to survive. But if the baby is between 24-28 weeks, there is a high chance that the baby will have either physical or mental problems. Prof suggested that we shd let the baby go, but daddy and mummy is determined to let the baby carry on and be prepared for the worst. Let baby decide. Mama and papa will never give up on their own baby.
The situation changed. On Tue, mama had a fever of 38 deg. Doc suspects that it is infection. If it is really infection, mama cannot keep the baby anymore as it will harm the baby and will be borned prematurely. They monitored the fever closely and also took a blood test.
At ard 7pm that night, the doc came to inform that it is a very high chance that it is infection. They feel that mama shd cut away the stitch and let the baby go...This is a very very painful decision. If the stitch is not cut, the baby might force through the cervix and both lives will be in danger. There was no choice and the doc cut the stitch. The waterbag broke. Mama was very traumatic. This also means that the baby will come out anytime. As the baby is still very small, there is no epidural and mama will have to deliver naturally. This is a very harsh reality.
At ard 1130pm, mama was given a pill to speed up the contractions and dilation. When the pill was inserted, the contractions were so strong and painful. At 0005h, 13th Feb, mama could feel the baby coming through and she delivered. But she cannot bring the baby home. The baby has gone to a faraway place to seek peace and happiness.
Why does this has to happen? Mama feel very sorry to daddy that she cannot protect the baby.
Mama and papa decided not to have a last look at the baby as it is just too painful. But the nurses help to took a photograph of the baby for them to bring home. On the night of discharge, mama and papa decided that they shd look at the photo. It is afterall their precious baby, and there is nothing to be scared off. They opened the envelope and saw how beautiful their baby is. Strong arms and legs. Baby was already well-formed. They cried very very hard that night. Although daddy is always consoling mama, but she knew how painful and sad daddy feels too.
Daddy finally spoke abt how sad he was. He said that he was waiting for mama in the car that night for her to deliver. When he received the text that she delivered, he took the lift to go up the ward. A couple was abt to deliver, came into the lift. Papa held the lift for them. The couple asked, "Are you here to deliver as well?" And daddy said, "No, I just lost my child". When mama heard this, she felt so painful and terrible for papa that he has to go through this.
It is heaven's will and fate that mama and papa cannot have the blessing to have this baby. They are not lucky enough. But mama and papa will always have 2 children, Ai Xuan and Yu Xuan. May all the GODs bless Yu Xuan with a good life and happiness.
Mama was hospitalised immediately and put under observation. On following Mon, dr jeannette and professor tan suggested that mama goes for a cerclage. this is a surgery that can help to stitch the cervis back so that the pregnancy can prolong to full term.
HOwever, there are some risks involved in the surgery. There might be infection and the waterbag might break. But mama still wants to go for the surgery as she and papa cannot give up on the baby. If the surgery was not done, baby may come out anytime. This is her only hope.
Luckily, the surgery was successful and the cervix was closed.
Mama has to spend the CNY in the hospital for a week as she has to be completely resting in bed. Not even to go toilet for any business. She practically eat, sleep and s*** in bed.
On the 11th Feb, Mon, mama was supposed to be discharged after a scan. However, the scan showed that the cervix was opened up again, to abt 1cm. This was not supposed to happen!
At that point, the baby was only reaching 20 weeks. The docs say that if baby is borned between 20-24 weeks, it is not possible for the baby to survive. But if the baby is between 24-28 weeks, there is a high chance that the baby will have either physical or mental problems. Prof suggested that we shd let the baby go, but daddy and mummy is determined to let the baby carry on and be prepared for the worst. Let baby decide. Mama and papa will never give up on their own baby.
The situation changed. On Tue, mama had a fever of 38 deg. Doc suspects that it is infection. If it is really infection, mama cannot keep the baby anymore as it will harm the baby and will be borned prematurely. They monitored the fever closely and also took a blood test.
At ard 7pm that night, the doc came to inform that it is a very high chance that it is infection. They feel that mama shd cut away the stitch and let the baby go...This is a very very painful decision. If the stitch is not cut, the baby might force through the cervix and both lives will be in danger. There was no choice and the doc cut the stitch. The waterbag broke. Mama was very traumatic. This also means that the baby will come out anytime. As the baby is still very small, there is no epidural and mama will have to deliver naturally. This is a very harsh reality.
At ard 1130pm, mama was given a pill to speed up the contractions and dilation. When the pill was inserted, the contractions were so strong and painful. At 0005h, 13th Feb, mama could feel the baby coming through and she delivered. But she cannot bring the baby home. The baby has gone to a faraway place to seek peace and happiness.
Why does this has to happen? Mama feel very sorry to daddy that she cannot protect the baby.
Mama and papa decided not to have a last look at the baby as it is just too painful. But the nurses help to took a photograph of the baby for them to bring home. On the night of discharge, mama and papa decided that they shd look at the photo. It is afterall their precious baby, and there is nothing to be scared off. They opened the envelope and saw how beautiful their baby is. Strong arms and legs. Baby was already well-formed. They cried very very hard that night. Although daddy is always consoling mama, but she knew how painful and sad daddy feels too.
Daddy finally spoke abt how sad he was. He said that he was waiting for mama in the car that night for her to deliver. When he received the text that she delivered, he took the lift to go up the ward. A couple was abt to deliver, came into the lift. Papa held the lift for them. The couple asked, "Are you here to deliver as well?" And daddy said, "No, I just lost my child". When mama heard this, she felt so painful and terrible for papa that he has to go through this.
It is heaven's will and fate that mama and papa cannot have the blessing to have this baby. They are not lucky enough. But mama and papa will always have 2 children, Ai Xuan and Yu Xuan. May all the GODs bless Yu Xuan with a good life and happiness.
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